RETARDS GONE WILD *yiba! yiba!

2010-09-13T02:31:00.000-07:00

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2010-09-12T13:09:00.000-07:00

2010-09-12T13:04:00.000-07:00

Raya's Here!

2010-09-10T13:11:00.000-07:00

hello

Raya's here!

Not much pictures today. Only met up with the paternal side because since my maternal grandmother is off to kampong, there wasn't any huge gathering for my mum's side. yeah, I know. It sucks. Raya's not raya until I meet my other cousins.

But anyway, it's getting late and I'm not planning to sleep. Cheers to good novels!

Good-mornight Humans and to hell with Pastor Jones.

2010-09-08T07:39:00.000-07:00

Chelly:

Yes. Those babies are lying on concrete.

Yes. That bottle is empty.

Yes. Those are mosquitoes swarming their little bodies.

Yes. This is the condition of Pakistan, at the moment.

A couple of weeks have gone by since the floods in Pakistan have flowed and the number of people effected by this are staggering & record breaking.

Over 20 MILLION PEOPLE.

That is MORE THAN THE COMBINED TOTAL of the 2004 Tsunami, the 2005 Kashmir earthquake, the 2010 Haiti earthquake, and the American Katrina disaster.

How many of you knew about this? It’s a shame at the extreme lack of coverage on this horrific disaster. Pakistan is getting MINIMAL help.

Ignorance never ends, a recent poll was taken in America on whether if they would donate or have donated to Pakistan or not. 67% DO NOT wish or want to help Pakistan. 67%.

And as for the donations that are being sent… 60% of aid needed now, has not been delivered. Who has them & why haven’t they reached the public?

I was born in Karachi, Pakistan. My city is located in the south region of Pakistan (Sindh province). I can not fathom the words….The amount of hurt I am feeling.

No one is helping.

I try to blog about it daily…only getting a few notes or so..I post a picture of myself and in come the notes and comments. What I’m trying to say is, Please…take note of this. These people are innocent and now they are homeless and sick. Children are dying quickly due to the lack of care. People have drowned, crops are ruined..animals are dead, & homes are gone. It is being speculated that my city will eventually drown since it’s already low. The floods haven’t hurt my region yet but they have affected my friends & families home and so many other innocent people.

This picture breaks my heart..I want you all to look at this picture. What do you see?

Do you see terrorists? Do you see future killers? Do you see another plot against America? Do you see that in those mosquitoes that can possibly and most likely have left diseases such as malaria? Do you see harm in that empty bottle?

Extremists are the ones to blame, not Muslims. Why should we be left hopeless? We didn’t do anything.

And as for the Qu’ran burning this weekend in Florida, I believe….

The thought of that night makes me cry. Do you all understand the severity and ignorance of that act? Why isn’t anyone stopping them? My religion, my faith didn’t hurt you. EXTREMISTS DID. They are NOT religious. My faith is NOT a cult.

I don’t know what to do. I honestly don’t know. I’ve never felt this helpless. No one is helping, no one cares. Fuck neither do my own best friends know much about this.

Just look at this picture and think about what you’ve just read.

Help. Please.

If you can…I’m not asking for a shitload of cash. But please, try to donate. Donating to UNICEF will send aid to children. Donate to the Red Cross & the UN Foundation. I trust the most in these three foundations, they’ve actually managed to send and successfully help the victims.

One-fifth of the country is under water; 20 million+ people are homeless. All I ask is for you to help a little and spread awareness.

2010-09-06T09:57:00.000-07:00

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2010-09-06T09:36:00.000-07:00

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2010-09-03T03:05:00.000-07:00

I swear it's been too long since I felt this way about anybody- too long that I can't be sure if it's all real. When I saw him flirt, I got crazy jealous. What bothers me so much is that the girl is religious, naive and she's nowhere near as pretty as the girls that I know he hangs out with. This just ascertains the fact that I've known all along; that he's a nice guy, unlike those fools who fall for thick-makeup-wearing, shallow girls.
But that's not enough for me- I don't want him to fall for any other nice girls out there, I want him to fall for me.

2010-08-25T15:51:00.000-07:00

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2010-08-20T10:18:00.000-07:00

ape ni, kunyit, and it was all yellow........

2010-08-20T08:19:00.000-07:00

2010-08-20T07:54:00.000-07:00

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so guess what? I failed the lecture test. again.

i'm so sick of failing and i've seriously had enough of it. I don't know what makes you think that I'm not responsible for my own studies- which part of asking questions in class and completing my tutorials show that I'm slacking.
I'm so exhausted and I'm not even making it.
But I'm not gonna give up. Some part, I'm not sure which exactly it is about trying so hard to pass, makes the whole effort seems worth it. The sense of achievement at the end of it is worth it and it's the reason that's spurring me on to keep faith.

2010-08-20T07:44:00.000-07:00

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2010-08-07T14:28:00.000-07:00

look mister, I don't know what it is with you but if you insult me again, Imma make sure you regret it. it's just a random picture okay, so what's the big deal? will you just let it go? its my facebook anyway so what has it got to do with you? you might make it sound so subtle but i'm no naive kid aite?- I know exactly what the fuck it is that you're getting at. Like seriously dude, just cause I don't retaliate, it doesn't mean I'm okay with your eff-ed up attitude. stop dissing people and go take a good, long look the mirror. the next time you wanna give a pep talk about respect and being a role model, make sure you practice what you preach.

2010-08-01T05:24:00.000-07:00

My cousin passed away today.

I‘m at a loss of words to describe what today was like. Today has been an emotional roller coaster. Actually, it’s more like a downward spiral and I hit rock bottom.

I was involved in a CIP activity in the morning and in the bus on the way back to the Senior Citizen Centre, Ma called; she’s rushing to KL to attend my cousin’s funeral. After I hung up, it didn’t sink in at first and as I processed the information, the shock wave hit me like a wall of brick. Grief overwhelmed me and I struggled to suppress the strong emotions. I thought I had it under control and approached Erlin to tell her that I needed to go off first. When she saw that I was tearing up, she asked why. My voice broke on the word died and I could feel the control slipping away.

As soon as I alighted, I walked away. I didn’t want the whole club to witness my breaking down. As I hurried along the road, I was wiping away tears that were gushing down my face. People stared but I couldn’t care less. Fuck this ignorant people. As soon as I reached Redhill MRT station, I rushed to the toilet and once safe behind the cubicle door, I let grief consume me. I leaned against the door and doubled forward in muted cries and sobs. I knew I couldn’t stay in there for long cause there’s a queue and members of the club are bound to head for the MRT too. I couldn’t risk them seeing me that way. When I stepped out of the cubicle, there were a few members but I could not affirm who as I avoided their eye contact.

I brusquely left the toilet only to see more members outside. It was hell. I focused on the floor, hiding my reddening face as I waited for the train. It’s an hour ride to Marsiling and when you’re about to have an emotional breakdown, time felt like an eternity. I stood at the cabin connecter cause there’s less passengers standing there and once again hid my face. I couldn’t stop the tears from coming and trust me, I’ve never felt embarrassment like I had today. I knew people were staring but I can’t do anything about the situation. The best option to me was to bite the bullet and endure till I reach Marsiling. Till I find my safe haven to let everything out.

I knew I can’t go home cause it’d make me feel worse. I knew for damn sure that I needed someone. And the first 2 people that I texted could not meet up with me. So sitting alone on a bench at a deserted playground, I decided to ask haziq.

I was bracing myself for another “I’m so sorry but I can’t meet you. How about a call instead?” reply but instead, he replied that he’d be there in 20 minutes.

While waiting for him, Saf texted “Beb, are you okay? Give me ten minutes and I’ll call you.” Reading that, I cried even harder. I wanted more than ever for her to be beside me. I was thinking; God I wish she still lives 15 minutes away from me. She’d know what to say, what to do. I wish she’s hug me tight again and I’d just cry on her shoulders. When she called, I literally had nothing to say. All I can tell her was what had happened. How can I show my emotions through the wire or express my grief in words. In the end, there was just silence at the end of both lines with occasional sobs on mine. We hung up when Haziq showed up.

He sat down, looked at me and smiled before asking , “What happened?”

“My cousin passed away.”

“When?”

“This morning.”

He looked ahead, silence, “Erm, I don’t know what to say…”

“You don’t have to say anything. I just need someone here. Neither am I going to start crying again. I’ve cried so much there’s nothing left in me.” I grinned and he smiled back.

And then we talked about random things about how he’s been so fucking busy at Temasek Poly and how he regretted not joining a more slack Polytechnic. Amazingly, the number of Malays at Temasek Poly can be counted by ten fingers.

Haziq gave up Rugby. I almost couldn’t believe it. Haziq lives for rugby and he’s so damn talented at it but due to academic commitments, he can’t cope. Crazy huh? He went on to complain about how his ‘jagu’ hurt cause someone rammed him so bad during a match yesterday that he went temporarily deaf in one ear. I’m glad he’s talking so much cause it takes my mind off things.

I initially wanted to go home and sleep but he pestered me to go lepak with him and his Popeye mates. He said he’d walk me home and that it’d do me no good moping around at home. When I said I was hungry he insisted we go out and eat and he even agreed to pay for me. Gosh.

I’m so thankful he was there for me today. He made me smile through my grief and that, is a friend I can count on.

Some can be shockingly insensitive though. I don’t blame him but I don’t know what will happen; he might hate me and if he does, so be it. It was foolish of me to ask him for help when we’re not even close. Come to think of it, I’m so embarrassed now. I wish I hadn’t texted him today. That would’ve been better and I wouldn’t feel so awkward now.

2010-07-06T06:25:00.000-07:00

My heart skipped two beats today when you saw me, smiled and waved.
I just wish I could get to know you better as a person.
You look like the real-easy-to-talk-to kind of guy.
So how bout it matey, wanna join me for a drink sometime?

Say yesssss...

Football Jargon

2010-07-05T05:53:00.000-07:00

Faizah doesn't understand why I'd root for Germany after it trashed Argentina 0-4. Yea it sounds like I'm fickle but even though I was initially kinda sad that the Germans managed to beat Argentinians, I was impressed with the way they played.
Their defending was superb as I watched the Argentinians struggled to get past their defenders. They played fair and their coordination was excellent. It kinda says a lot about their teamwork.

I'm with the Germans for this FIFA 2010. I hope they triumph over Spain and get to the finals this wednesday. I have my doubts cause Spain is a formidable opponent but heck it, i still hope they win.

I can't find a team photo with Boateng in it so this will do. Sad. I like that dude.

There are other superb photos from the FIFA 2010 official website that captures all those cool moves and with upclose faces of Messi and Klose but as I expected, they're all protected and copyrighted. Bleagh.

2010-07-05T05:04:00.001-07:00

Just got back from watching '9 Temples' at AMK Cathay Cineplex with Atikah, Saufy, Hazmie and Fana.
The entertainment value was satisfying but the plot didn't make much sense to me. Why is it always like that?- most horror movies either have bad endings or plots that doesn't make any sense. Pfft.

School tomorrow. Surprisingly, I don't seem to dread it so much.
Considering that, I guess my schedule's gonna be jammed pack anytime soon. Haha, as if that's ever really bothered me. When I need a break, I'll take a break and deal with the consequences later. Or, you could call that a lack of discipline.
Hence, I'll be going AWOL.

Ma classmates bailed on me yesterday. The planned class outing was cancelled and I was stranded at Bugis with no plan and no friend. Going home when I was already at Bugis at 1 would be real depressing so I went to Esplanade and finished my project work on my lappy. I asked Haziq to text me when he's done with his group work but I finished early and as soon as I reached home, I crashed on the bed and didn't regain consciousness till tomorrow morning. Checked my phone and there was a text from him asking if I had already reached home.

I feel real lousy cause I feel like I somewhat bailed on him.
He didn't text me back when I apologised.
So I'm wondering if he's angry.
I'm assuming he's not.
He probably found something better to do than hang out with me. Guys aren't petty right?
I hope I'm right.

2010-07-03T08:57:00.000-07:00

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Argentina!

2010-07-03T07:00:00.000-07:00

Shit, Germany just scored one goal against Argentina and it's only 2 minutes or so into the match. Come on Argentina, you gotta win mann.

Oh and hello there. =) lets watch some football!

2010-07-03T06:11:00.000-07:00

Ma bailed out on me today. She decided that she's not going out cause it's raining. Uggh, like what's the point of an umbrella then?
I decided that I wasn't going to spend the rest of the day rotting at home and thus went out with Umai. Today was really relaxing and leisurely. We slacked at Republic Poly; playing our guitars and singing and talking. I learnt how to play 2 songs today thanks to Umai. I don't fancy my guitar that much cause it's not user-friendly. The strings are hard on the fingers. It hurts.
I ended up playing on Umai's guitar.
the day passed by quick and the cool weather was awesome.

2010-07-02T11:45:00.000-07:00

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2010-07-02T11:26:00.000-07:00

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Birthday Card

2010-07-02T10:49:00.000-07:00

Saf gave me my belated birthday card while we were eating lunch at Long Johns' this afternoon. I was surprised cause i didn't expect her to have time to make me a card and all but all the same, the gesture made me smile.

we have this thing about making hand-made cards for each other. it has more meaning and value that way, don't you think? =) plus it's more original and one-of-a-kind. i love making cards for close friends. Saf should know me well enough to know that I love glitters and coloured papers. Arts and crafts, I like...

anyway, i read her card during the one hour long bus ride from Bedok to Woodlands and i really smiled like a goon. haha.

I absolutely love the card beb and yeah, I miss you too. and there were numerous instances when I thought to myself 'I wish Saf was here' too. God knows how sad I felt when you told me of the possibility of you moving. That was one year ago and I was so shocked that I didn't know what to say to you. yeah..i guess we'd both be much happier if we were together. and we'd both be good to go with our daily dose of milo. yup, lets endure JC and see where life takes us. Maybe I'd get lucky and get wed to Jason Mraz. Don't worry, I won't forget to invite you to our wedding held in England. haha. i should stop my wild fantasies now and hit the sack. I said goodnight in the prior post but i thought i should thank you first.

Good mor-night Saf.

Today

2010-07-02T09:56:00.000-07:00

I went out with saf just now =) I bussed to Bedok at approximately 10.30 am. Ironically enough, i initially planned to be at Bedok by that time. Sigh, screw waking up late..
Today's outing wasn't planned. Saf finished her MYE that morning and since I have no paper on that day, I thought I'd go down and spend some quality time with her.

We watched Eclipse and I know some of ya'll might prolly go like 'Wadahell? Eclipse? Lame shit or what?' but we watched it for the sake of getting a good laugh. I mean, Edward Patty is so not attractive. It puzzles me how many girls can even fantasize about him. Edward Patty ain't got no abs and so far in the Twilight saga, I didn't think he had the opportunity to portray an array of emotions yet. He's either aloof, protective, angry or jealous and if not, he's most probably getting steamy, trying to get into Bella's pants. And don't get me started on Bella's orgasm-ic face when she's kissing. It makes me involuntarily look away, period. Gag reflex, I think. MTV Movie Awards this year was such a bore cause he kept dominating the awards. Come on Edward Patty, admit it- You prolly koped all the awards due to overwhelming female voting. Haha. But as the saying goes, 'Everybody's a critic.'
I think Taylor is good-looking though. Haha. Maybe I should start dating native americans now. Nah...I'm still hot for Jason Mraz. always will be.

The saying still stands true. Causeway Point is so far the best hang-out place I've ever known. It's got Banquet for Halal, affordable food and it's got an awesome cinema outlet that offers good tix prices for students. If you pay by nets, they only charge you $6. Compare that to standard $10 or $9.50 tixs at GV ey? And they've got a lot of stalls selling halal food. It's hard to get halal snacks at the malls in Tampines just now. So I survived on Mr Bean after the movie. Oh and note to self: never buy Roseberry-flavoured drinks ever gain. Ever.

It's nice just sitting at some random spot, talking to Saf while eating ice cream and such. It's just like old times. I crave for normality these days. Times back when I knew exactly what I was doing in life and why. I'm just surviving day to day in JC. I thought life after O's would be more promising but turns out, I was sadly mistaken. When school reopens, all the fuckery will kick into gear again.
I hope Mr Hot would be too much on my case if I screwed my Mid Year exams inside out. God knows I studied for Math.

Imma crash now. I feel dead beat and awful. My 2-week long coughing fit has not been cured even though i've almost finished off the bottle of cough med. Ma's definitely gonna make me go see a doc now... and i'm coming down with fever too. I feel hot and cold. it's definitely not the best combination of ilnesses. Everytime I cough, I feel like my head's about to explode. Bleagh.

Good mor-night humans.

In Dire Need of Shoes

2010-07-02T08:21:00.001-07:00

I LIKE:

Champion Basic Brights by
Keds

i regret buying those Converse shoes. i liked them cause they looked slim and they're light weight. But turns out, they're really impractical. the soles of the shoes are too thin such that even when it rains a little and the pavements become wet, water would seep into them. I hate it when my socks and feet are wet! Uggh. that squishy moist feeling when you walk. I can tolerate a little wetness but i'm through with having my whole feet soaking wet whenever it rains.

and yes, that is the reason why I'm in dire need of a good pair of sneakers. school's starting soon and I need dependable sneakers. i'll be on the lookout for Keds or perhaps Everlast. I'm SHOE SHOP-ing tomorrow! care to join me?

2010-07-01T08:24:00.000-07:00

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2010-07-01T08:15:00.000-07:00

F▲RIHIN S▲▲P.:
"ergh, Twilight.

Me: Eeew, Twilight, boring shit.
Brother: Eh! Twilight best oi!
Me: Jacob Black only, the rest eew. Robert Patty like drug addict.
Kristen Stewart is NOT HOT.
Brother: But she's cute. *cheeky smile
Me: -.-

haha. I couldn't agree more.

2010-07-01T08:01:00.000-07:00

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2010-07-01T07:52:00.000-07:00

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2010-07-01T07:40:00.000-07:00

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Ma

2010-07-01T07:03:00.000-07:00

After the paper, I gave Ma a call to see if she was up for some early dinner. She was getting off work in about half an hour so I made my way to her work place from school. We went for some Ayam Penyet at Novena Square and it tasted awesome cause I haven't had anything to eat since morning. I was literally starving. My stomach had been rumbling halfway through the 3-hour paper.

The train was packed on our way home but after some time, the crowd seemed to ease up a bit. When one of the passengers allighted, this teenager went to take a seat but when he saw my mum, he offered the seat to her. From the way he smiled, I thought the gesture seemed sincere enough but my mum declined.

There have been two instances when someone offered to give up their seat for my mum and I found it strange. I've never once thought that my mum looked like a person whom people should give up their seats for. I mean, yeah, she's middle-aged but... I guess I just find it odd that to others, my mum looked old.

Furthermore, in both cases when people offered their seat to her, she adamantly refuses them. Once, this guy even got up and approached her to ask her to take seat but she kept saying 'It's okay.' And then the corners of her mouth would turn down and she'd look away.

If I didn't know her better, I'd say she's insulted and embarrassed that people think she's old. I think it's this egoistic nature of hers of somewhat. But I guess that's what makes her her. She can be really hard headed in doing things on her own. Sometimes I wished she'd lean on people a little more rather than doing things all by herself.

I found a reason, for the first time, to text you. I've almost forgotten I've had your number for months now. (=
i hope it wasn't too obvious though.

Mid Year Exams are O-V-E-R !

2010-07-01T06:39:00.000-07:00

So...mid year exams are over...
no school tomorrow and monday's a holiday so fuck yeah for that!

math paper was a catastrophe. that just about sums up how I felt I performed for it. i didn't even manage to complete any of the 9 questions except for one. Any previous hopes that I might priorly have of even passing have been completely dashed. i foresee atrocious results.
come to think of it, i wished i hadn't wasted my time studying for the math paper because i'm strongly convinced that whether if were to study or not, there was absolutely no chance of me passing that damn paper. Seriously, quoting my friend, sometimes exams seems so unreasonably tough that i feel like they're testing our giftedness instead of our knowledge.

the last paper, chem, was today. I struggled with the 1 hour MCQ cause I didn't have enough time and at the last minute, I did 'eenie minie mynie mo' at a desperate attempt of getting lucky. Paper 2 was better but I don't want to say much lest I fail again.

2010-06-29T05:04:00.000-07:00

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2010-06-29T04:39:00.000-07:00

I thought I was going to get slaughtered during today's Geography paper. I know it was my own doing and it was I who decided to sacrifice geography for biology. Sigh. I know that shouldn't be the case here cause ideally, both subjects were to be taken seriously.

Fortunately, my efforts were not put to waste. The time I took to study Bio instead of Geog paid off because majority of the questions were on Molecular Genetics and shit and I would've been screwed real bad if I hadn't crammed for it. So halleluyah for that.
My time management sucked balls though. I didn't manage to complete the 7 mark bio essay that I very well know I was capable of answering cause I studied for it. But shame, 7 marks gone now...

The geography paper that was after the bio paper in the morning was at 2 pm. I tried to cram whatever geography jargon I could into my brain but it wasn't really cooperative. I guess I just couldn't absorb anymore. I spent at least 2 hours staring at the page on volcanoes and nothing went in. I understood the mechanism and all, that wasn't a problem but memorising, now that's the problem.

So I went in the exam hall feeling like a shmuck for having done this to myself. The examiner asked us to check the number of pages on the question booklet and I glanced at the 9 mark and 16 mark essay question. One was asking about granitic landforms and the other on rate, type and effectiveness on weathering.

D-A-M-N i was elated. I've just been whacked by the lucky stick yo! At least these 2 I've studied for before the June holidays and I started the paper with the essays first because I thought if i secured the 25 mark essays, I might not fail that badly.

but heck it! At least I've got something to write. I thought with my lack of preparation, I'd probably just write my name and sit there and cry till the paper's over.

Maths tomorrow. Gonna do some practice now. Afternoon paper so cheers to waking up a bit later than 5 freaking am in the morning!

Bye humans.

Oh and to you, thanks for messaging me. You're much nicer than I've given you credit for.

Safiah's Spamming Spree

2010-06-27T21:15:00.000-07:00

WOW, never thought spamming would feel so good.

for she's a golly jood fellow. for he's a golly jood fellow.
for she's a golly jood FELLOW!!..
that nobody can deny.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAAHHAHAHAAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAH. SAFISH . LOL. SALBIAH. LOL SAFIAH.

don't forget 1 more nickname. We used to call you 'safiah dicknose' in sec 2. that comes with a drawing of you too. I'll show it to you some time...we hardly get to meet.

kalau rambut aku betul betul cm in that pic, will you still be my friend? lol.

Which picture beb?

HEEEYY BEB. apek kat background kau yang korek hidung.. terigt aku time aku korekan hidung kau..nice,

I KNOW RIGHT?! thanks for the excellent service beb. No one could have done it better than you. The courtesy of your stubby short fingers...ahh..life doesn't get any better than this

just a thought ah beb, its just so amazing how people can think they are right.. WHEN THEY ARE LIKE FUCKING EFFING BITCHINGLY WRONG. hahahaha. pitiful shit.

yeah I share the same sentiments. I feel like bounding them with some piece of rope and hang them from the ceiling. And then, we can try beating some sense into them like a pinata. That'd be fun. Im being really sadistic right now aren't I? haha wtf.

2010-06-27T20:58:00.000-07:00

last night,
i dreamt someone I really cared about died
and I woke up this morning with utmost apprehension.

should I give her a call?

2010-06-27T20:54:00.000-07:00

fmylife:

"Today, I was at the store when I saw two extremely hot girls. I walked into their aisle and they looked at me and smiled. I stopped and pretended to look at something so I could listen to what they were saying. They started laughing and walked away. It turned out I was reading a box of tampons." FML

2010-06-26T02:53:00.000-07:00

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2010-06-26T02:39:00.000-07:00

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best jump shot post I've ever seen.

Awesome Seniors

2010-06-25T07:52:00.000-07:00

This shit gets me laughing like crazy mann.

Awesome seniors, period!

2010-06-25T07:44:00.000-07:00

I was at my Grandma’s the other day and we got talking. Mostly she was complaining about stuff that she’d already complained about to Ma and I the last time we were there. But I still listened cause I know that conversations like this helps her calm her mind.

I feel really guilty for not visiting her often enough. I used to visit her all the time after o’s and I even sleep over when it’s late and I’m too much of a pig to drag my lazy ass home. We don’t live that far apart anyway; still in awesome Woodlands.

And then, somehow, we got talking about how my mum was in her youth and to put it plainly, she was the typical Goody-Goody-Two-Shoes. This wasn’t such a shocker cause I was already aware of this fact. Ma didn’t go on dates and she doesn’t hang out with friends after school…yada yada yada…

She graduated, got a job and then got married with my Dad. What I didn’t know was this; right after my mum got engaged, my Uncle’s friend asked to be introduced to my mum cause he was interested in her or sumthin'.

So I asked Grandma ‘Die handsome tak nek?’ and when Grandma said he was a mix of Arab and Malay , I like totally flipped. Arab? Awesome! I guess if he had been my dad, I would’ve had a sharper nose and if I’m lucky, I’d have a pair of those amazing green or grey eyes. To top it off, he’s a lawyer now and I guess if he was my dad, I would be living in some big house with everything that I’ve ever needed.

I know I’m being shallow and despicable here, but I just can’t help marveling at such a possibility. Before I got ahead of myself, I realized that I wouldn’t want my life to be any other way. If fate has it, and Ma married that Arabic dude, I might just cease to exist.

Anyway, life as it is now is perfect. I might not be living the rich life but it’s definitely a comfortable one. My parents are well-off enough to send me off for overseas trips and I do get things that I need or perhaps want. Furthermore, Ma puts a big emphasis on education and if it wasn’t for her, I don’t think I would’ve come thus far.

I think that if I was born with a silver spoon in my mouth I might just turn out to be some haughty insensitive person like some of the people I know. Thing is, life isn’t that exciting when you can get whatever you want. The adventure comes from working to get things that are beyond your reach and succeeding on your own efforts. It makes you tough.

2010-06-23T04:55:00.000-07:00

To whom it may concern;

Damn you, you effing lazy, self-centered idiot you. My tolerance level has a limit just like everyone else's and if you want to keep on pushing that limit, I suggest you get yourself prepared for a torrent of verbal abuse imma give you when I explode some time soon. I’ve been more than patient with you. All you do is slack all day and you never contribute anything to this household. You treat everyone else like your personal maid. I’m not calculative when I wash the dishes nor when I buy food so I don’t understand why you should be that way unless you’re taking everything for granted. Nobody likes doing chores dammit and I don’t complain when I wash your plates. And yet, when you see the sink full of unwashed plates and cups, what do you do?- you pick out which is yours and leave the rest. Once or twice I could let it go but dude, it’s been months! And now what? You want to take it to a whole new level? Like spilling curry in the microwave and then leave it for days until I see it and clean it out of hygiene purposes? Time and again, I picked up your slack but today was the limit. You spilled your soup in the microwave and if that wasn’t enough, you left bits and pieces of the noodle as well. And when Ma asked you to wash her plate, you out rightly said no. Ass you for saying ‘No way’ when I asked you take out the trash. I’ve had enough of this bullshit. Maybe Ma can still stand you but I’ve had enough for being your unpaid maid. This is why I think UG is pure crap. It doesn’t teach you discipline nor does it effectively build up your character. It is undeniably successful though, in making its members complete tasks out of sheer fear. When you’re in the lower ranks, you’re crippled by fear of pleasing your superior so as to avoid punishment and the only “benefit” of enduring it through the ranks step-by-step is to get a higher rank so that you can repeat the vicious cycle to those below. Don’t give me this shit that UG is supposed to build up your discipline and shit. I don’t buy it, at the secondary school level that is.

I know I digressed from the main issue here but I was just really pissed. I’m fine now. Aite, I’m gonna do chem now. You should go and study too. =) peace out.

Pictures of Trio Time

2010-06-18T07:42:00.000-07:00

2010-06-18T07:34:00.000-07:00

viamaddierose

come lay with me blake

2010-06-17T10:45:00.000-07:00

DEFINITION OF Best Friends: people who know how stupid you are and still choose to be seen with you in public.

meeting them tomorrow and im totally STOKED.

FUCK YEAH!

australia flashback

2010-06-17T09:59:00.000-07:00

the food grossed me out; the slice of radish wedged in the layers of the hamburger stained the buns a sickly, gaudy pink colour. when i first got the food, i thought "is this fit to be eaten?" cause the whole meal seems unpalatable. the humongous-sized fries-probably meant for big-sized autralians rather than asian teens was way too salty. adding on to my misery was the unbearable cold. my teeth were literally chattering and despite shoving my fists deeper into my jeans pockets, it still felt like i was standing naked in the snow; and i cant keep my hands in there for too long cause i need them for feeding.

everyone else also had their bodies huddled up and those who were fortunate enough to have brought along their gloves seemed to be handling the temperature better. i cursed under my breath thinking of my gloves lying on my seat in the bus outside. i could run up to the bus and get them but i wouldn't risk the cold outside. i finished my food in silence, occasionally smirking at the funny jokes a nearby clique were sharing; they're a friendly bunch.

'hey. i'm going up the bus first' i said to N who seemed to want to linger around the friendly bunch longer and headed for the door. the guy in front of me opened the door and stepped out. i felt the chilly breeze blow in my face and shuddered as i stood in the doorway. i looked at the floor in front of me and saw a wet, ragged and furry thing lying on its tummy. it looks dishevelled and when i realised that it was a dog, i frantically stepped back and the glass door started to slide close. it was nearly closing when he caught the handle. he made some room for me and said urgently ' Faster. Faster.' Catching on, i dashed out.

the carpark was almost void of vehicles and this scene here would be unlikely in Singapore context. this petrol kiosk seems so deserted and in the night mist, it looked even more depressing. while pulling up my hoodie over my head, i glanced to my left and thanked him.

he flashed me a smile and i asked ' do you have a dog at home?'
'no i dont. i want to, but my mum wouldn't have it.'
'if it wasn't against my religion, i would've have wanted a dog actually. is your mum afraid of dogs?'
'naw. she used to have a pet dog when she was young and took care of it but i guess now, she's kindof sick of having to clean and feed it. she said if i wanted one, i would've to wait till i finished school and move out of the house.
i grinned at his lament cause it reminded me of my own mum; she said having cats in the house is unhygienic and requires the responsibility that apparently, i lack.
'yeah. my mum says the same thing. but i guess it's partly true cause JC life is so hectic you don't even have time for yourself.'
he nodded in agreement. wow, he's so easy to talk to and so down to earth. plus he did me a favour just now with the dog. how odd- i didn't notice him before this conversation and its already 3 days into the trip. that's when i realised i didn't even know his name.

'umms. by the way, i didn't get your name.'
'it's chan hong.'
'right...do you have an english name?' (i suck at rmbring chinese names, period)
'no i don't have one, sorry. it's easy to remember. just think of jackie CHAN leaving HONG kong'
i can't help but laugh at his innovative analogy,'Aite..aite..' and i stepped into the bus.

2010-06-17T09:28:00.000-07:00

viafacta-non-verba

an episode of my life

2010-06-15T06:01:00.001-07:00

he was an episode in my life where i don't know wtf i was thinking.
Indonesian, 17, asthmatic, nice voice.

around 2 years ago.

i just can't help grinning and shaking my head in utter disbelief when i look at this photo. and whats even more baffling is that he called me up around 2 months ago to wish me a happy birthday.

weird..

2010-06-15T05:56:00.001-07:00

viafucktheinfluence

lose yourself

2010-06-15T04:41:00.000-07:00

her heart burned with a fiery rage that swirled chaotically inside of her like a whirlpool that threatens to engulf her grip on reality. she stared out-of-focus past his strong intimidating shoulders; willing her tears to stop coming- but just like how many things turned out to be a complete failure in her life, this was no different. angry tears swelled up and they brimmed over; gushing down like the rapid currents of a seemingly calm stream. he was hurling words at her- he was yelling them at the top of his lungs she thought her eardrums could possibly explode from all that screaming.

but it wasn't his yelling that was driving her over the edge. it was her own pitiful cries that rang loud, urging herself to take a stand- but she wouldn't.

she wanted so badly to hang him from the ceiling till his neck bruised blue black that her hands were quivering with temptation. she clenched her fists so hard that her knuckles turned white; till no blood flowed through them. she had to refrain from acting on actions that would bring her regret later on. she bit hard on her bottom lip to stop her scream of agony from escaping; bit on them so hard that she tasted iron from the blood that was flowing dark red.

she forced her eyes shut- let the emotions seep into her skin and down the drain.
and then she sank into the deepest darkest abyss just like a brick falling in to the depths of the vast ocean.

listen hard,

cause she almost stopped breathing.

2010-06-14T12:22:00.000-07:00

this is an old piece of writing dated in early-2009;

it will soon turn to be a year since we last shared a genuine smile.

sitting here right now, under the shower head, my thoughts are a little louder,

they seem to become alive .

i realised that i had truly loved you.

maybe we could have lasted

and perhaps, the lack of patience and reasoning had been the cause of it.

maybe i love you less now than i had loved you then

Maybe i don't even love you anymore

but i can't deny that i miss the thought of us

i miss the nights we walked in silence

the times you held my hand

maybe it's because you are my first

or perhaps i'm just weak in my pursuit to forget you

maybe i don't want to forget something that to me, was wonderful

people may come and go but the memories are what's left behind

i realised that i had truly loved you back then.

this realisation echo off the droplets, eventually seep into my skin

and then down the drain.

FIFA

2010-06-14T09:08:00.000-07:00

Go ASIA!

The Korea DPR Team

The Japan Team

The Korea Republic Team

Frankly, I'm not all that into the Korea DPR team cause the whole world knows that they're a communist country and who the hell knows what kind of fucked-up shit they do their citizens. Plus I once watched this documentary about how the people in the country are suffering from famish and oppression so yeah...it ain't pretty.

Go Japan and South Korea! WOOHOO!

2010-06-14T05:56:00.000-07:00

i feel like fuck. there's a hammer in my head, hammering away. i tried to sleep if off when i got home but it's gotten worse since i woke up. even the teevee seems like its volume is blaring and Ma is talking too loud on the phone. My head feels like it's about to explode. Everything's TOO LOUD. Arrgh. This is crazy. shit. Panadol Extra, i'm coming for you. Right NOW.

2010-06-13T07:50:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I think that I put too much thought into things that don’t really matter. I really should learn to let go of the past… but these things are easier said than done aren’t they? Ah, screw normality.

2010-06-13T07:43:00.000-07:00

2010-06-13T07:26:00.000-07:00

vialauryn holmquist

2010-06-12T09:04:00.000-07:00

Funny Incident

2010-06-12T08:22:00.000-07:00

Something really hilarious happened today. It started off when I got an sms from an unknown number. So here it goes.

unknown: yuan li. whats the detail of the bbq next week?
Me: Dude, I'm not yuan li. I think u got the wrong number yo.
unknown: oops sorry bro
Me: Nah, its okay. Im a gal btw. Haha. Aite take care n hv a fun bbq!
unknown: Haha yet again sorry about that (: thanks by the way (: have a great day/evening. Wait how old are you?

at this point, I was like '..aite cool.. this person is kinda friendly..and he's a guy'

Me: I'm seventeen. U?
unknown: Omg. haha. We have the same age! You still secondary or graduated?

now I'm like ' awesome! same age! what a coincidence'

Me: Lols. Graduated n in JC. U leh? Im guessing u're chinese?
unknown: Nah. im a Malay actually You mind? Im actually still in sec 5.

okay...now it's becoming too much of a coincidence. and then I recalled the name yuan li. she's in sec 5 too and the name is familiar.

Me: Whats ur name? Are you in BP by any chance?
unknown: Omg. yeah im in bpghs. Who are you btw?

now I'm smirking like a fool in my room by myself cos I know that there's a high chance I know this Malay dude.

Me: Just tell me ur name.
unknown: khairul ? and you are?

HAHAHA! It's khairul.. and all these while I was under the impression that he might be some mysterious stranger...

Me: Ure Khairul Nizar?
unknown: yes i am. WHO ARE YOU?

this part, he totally cracked me up. I mean he'd be totally freaked out by then. I know I would if a stranger I accidentally sms-ed know my name and school.

Me: HAHAHAHA! This is so funny sia. Ni fana lah. Kawan su!! LOLS!
unknown: OMFG!! Haha. fana mane? Fana safiah Atau fana hazmie? :)
Me: Saf saf. Aku pikir kau mane punye random person salah msg. Hahaha. Kau buat aku ketawe mcm rabak seh.
unknown: haha! Kiwak aku pon ngah ketawa macam first time ketawa. Epic nak mampus sia.! Haha.

So yeah..the highlight of my day today.

I'm a guy YO!

2010-06-12T08:14:00.000-07:00

This is cool. Whenever i travel, I become Nur Farhan. I'm a guy YO!

Fred

2010-06-10T23:13:00.000-07:00

Formspring me

2010-06-10T21:58:00.000-07:00

farhan say hi
farhana says Romaromumma!

2010-06-10T17:21:00.000-07:00

Good Morning Humans!
:D

2010-06-09T23:39:00.000-07:00

2010-06-09T23:28:00.000-07:00

You’re so adorable, like a little boy. You sit there by yourself near the window and then, at times, you’d curl up in your seat with your puzzle book on your lap and a pencil in one hand, trying to solve the puzzles. You’d be at it for hours and even when I’d fallen asleep and woken up again, you’d still have that book on your lap. And then, when you think you’ve done enough puzzles, you’d plug in your ear phones and just gaze out of the window for the hours to come. Sometimes you look so deep in thought that I wished I could know what you’re thinking. Other times, I saw you mouthing the lyrics of the song you’re listening to. Head banging and even some drumming actions as well. I’d watch you with a smile playing on my lips, happy to watch you without being noticed for it. And when you fall asleep…when you sleep…you make me want to.

2010-06-09T23:15:00.000-07:00

so detailed...
ive done 2 sketches that i'm proud of so far and they're not even that good. one of it is my left hand and another is a picture of my group of friends.

2010-06-09T22:53:00.000-07:00

2010-06-09T09:55:00.000-07:00

2010-06-09T09:51:00.000-07:00

I thought were over and done with that bad habit of yours but I guess I was dead wrong. You’re worse off than before. And suddenly I’m reminded again of the reason why I left you in the first place.

2010-06-09T09:49:00.000-07:00

317. Pride is not the opposite of shame. It is the source of it.

Keep on Dreaming

2010-06-08T19:59:00.000-07:00

You’re leaning over the sofa, offering chocolates to everyone at my table. You’re always so generous and nice to everybody, it makes me like you even more. I’m scribbling away in my journal, reflecting about the days’ event. Why do the teachers have to make us do this? Argh, I’m not getting any ideas… I looked up and for a split second we’re looking at each other. And for that split second, I felt my eyes widen and my heart raced. You averted your gaze before I managed to recover. Awkward, I quickly busied myself with my journal again but my mind wasn’t focused even though it felt like I could burn a hole right through the book for staring at it so hard. Was I mistaken when I saw the look of panic flicker across your face? Is it possible? I grinned inwardly. Pfft. Yeah right.

2010-06-07T08:24:00.000-07:00

Natural Air Con.

2010-06-07T08:11:00.000-07:00

I miss sleeping with gloves on and wearing multiple layers. Singapore's getting too damn hot.
I think these pictures are really pretty. Hah. Very scenic, I suppose.

Happy Birthday Kiddo!

2010-06-07T08:09:00.001-07:00

Day 4

2010-06-06T23:52:00.000-07:00

02062010

Theme: Science In Nature

a) Wildlife Park and Aboriginal Heritage Walk

The cave paintings consisting of handprints were orange in colour and the same stuff is used to do up their aboriginal face painting. The natural paint is derived from an orange-coloured rock which is grinded against another rock with the addition of water. When added with an emu’s egg white, the paint can stay on the rock for millions of years. Since different geological location consists of different rocks, different tribes possess different coloured rocks. Hence, trading of rocks occurred between tribes in order to create more colourful paintings.

The guide named Andy brought us on a tour around the park and showed us the various plant species. One of the first few was the flower of a plant of which the name I have forgotten. It looks like this;

When ripe, you can run your fingers down the columns of the spiky thingy and taste the nectar. Alternatively, you can make a cordial by stirring it in water. A scientific application of this plant is how two of the flowers can be stuck together. This forms fine pores between the area of connection. The joined flowers can be placed at holes where water flows through and it will help to filter dirt and soil particles producing clean drinkable water with a sweet taste.

There is another tree of which the name I have also forgotten but I’m not wrong, it is the ___ Red Blood Tree. It’s sap is blood red in colour and it is useful for almost anything. For example, if you have cuts, you can rub it on your cut to stop the pain and prevent infection. If you have a toothache, you can also rub the sap on your gums and if you have a sore throat, you can add water and gargle the solution the tree sap has antiseptic properties and it serves many purposes for the aboriginal people. In addition, the animals such as the kangaroos and the Koalas have a thick fur in order to survive the cold and this is a form of adaptation to the climate.

b) Botanical Gardens

This trip educated us on how plants go through various adaptations on order to survive in different climates that they live in. these adaptations are greatly influenced by biotic and abiotic factors for example, in the tropics where rainfalls are high and temperatures are humid, plants usually have a thick cuticle to allow excess water to drip off the drip tip. This prevents the water from obscuring the vital stomata for photosynthesis. Some plants also have climbers to enable them to climb up host trees in order to obtain maximum sunlight. In deserts however, where rainfall are scarce, plants such as cactuses had their leaves reduced to spikes to reduce water loss.
All these physical adaptations came about due to cell differentiation and besides biological science; it is also a form of geographical science.

The other 1/2 of Day 3

2010-06-06T23:01:00.000-07:00

01062010
Nabil, Ezra, Nissa and I had finished our dinner earlier than everyone else and we were outside taking photos when an Australian teenager walked past us in a funny Crab walk. Trying to be friendly, I smiled and said yo. When he stopped walking, he said “Konichiwa. Smell my cock.” Ezra replied by saying, “We can understand what you’re saying” but he had walked away. I then realized that there were two others behind him. They were both smoking and within earshot, the first of the two said the same vulgar words. By this time, Ezra was walking towards the restaurant followed by Nabil. Feeling a bit panicky, Nissa and I followed them. When I looked back, one of the teenager was swinging a chain that’s used for barricading areas and the last thing I heard was, “We’ll be back”.
When we reached the restaurant, Nissa and I were both shocked yet amused by the incident. We stood at the entrance with a bewildered expression on our faces. Mr Rob then entered the restaurant and offered to walk us back to the hostel. Ezra and I talked to him the whole way back to the hostel with the rest of the group behind us. The teenagers were nowhere in sight. Along the way, Mr Rob was commenting about how the teenagers were behaving rudely and referred to them as ‘Idiots’. That made me smile cause it’s funny how he said it in the Australian accent. As we walked, he talked about how a majority of western teenagers are unemployed and they pose as a social problem that most western countries have to handle. These unemployed teenagers are given $100 per month by the government and a majority of them spend it on drugs and alcohol. Firstly, they’re unemployed due to the scarcity of jobs that are available. Furthermore, with globalization, Australia is getting more immigrants from developing countries such as India who came to make a better living for themselves. Due to this competition, getting jobs for these Australian teenagers have gotten doubly hard.
Another factor is how these Australians are complacent, thinking that they would be given jobs more easily than the foreigners due to homeland privileges. Sadly, that is no longer the case. In addition, there is not much incentive for them to work because the money given by the government is approximately the same as the income they would earn if they were to work. Since they are lowly-skilled, the wages aren’t that high and thus, whether they work or not, they still get the same amount of allowance. So, why work?
In contrast to that, Singapore has a meritocracy system whereby citizens reap what they sow. Therefore, everyone has to work equally hard to get the success and reward. This results in productive citizens which would ultimately benefit the country.

Day 1 , Day 2 and 1/2 of Day 3

2010-06-06T04:37:00.000-07:00

30052010 and 31052010

The 7 hour flight to Australia was unncomfortable and I mean that in terms of both body and mind. I was seated in the middle of 2 big-sized men. I know that the one seated on my left was a New Zealander because I caught a glimpse of his passport cover. The row that I was seated in did not have a window seat so the New Zealander was seated next to the wall. Due to this, my viewing options were limited. The dude was really kind and helpful. He woke me up from my sleep to ask if I took muslim food. He then explained that while I was sleeping, a stewardess approached him and asked if he wanted the muslim food and ofcourse, being a non-muslim, he refused. I thought that it was very considerate of him to ask me when he guessed that the food was probably mine. Mind you, he needed to repeat himself several times before I understood what he was saying cause he had an accent. When the male stewardess returned to our row, he gave me the food tray and I asked if it was halal. He looked at me like I was talking nonsense. Dude, do you live under a rock? Don't you know that muslims exist and we eat halal food? Damn. And you call yourself a stewardess which is someone that supposedly is exposed to foreigners. Tsk tsk tsk.

This stewardess guy also had an accent and I was struggling to catch what he was saying. Fortunately, the New Zealander intervened and explained the prior incident. What happened next really ticked me off. It's obvious that the crew made a mistake by asking the wrong passenger. Why can't you just apologise and give me the damn food? Instead you tried to push the blame to us by accusing us that we switched places which led to the crew asking the wrong passenger. Again, the kind soul reiterated to the male stewardess that we are correctly seated. I had forgotten whether he apologised in end or not but regardless, the service sucked balls. I'll never ride Qantas ever.

The first thing I did when I cleared the customs was to change my singaporean dollars to Australian currency. The rate was damn high. It was S$1.32 for AU$1. According to my friends, they changed it at a rate of S$1.24. To make things worse, the service charge was $8. I got ripped off by the money changer. Okay, back to the story.

So the money changer was an indian guy named Abdul Khan and he was friendly enough. We made small talk and then he asked for my identification. the following conversation went like this.

Money Changer: Abdul Khan>> MC

Me: Fana>> ME

MC:(reading my ez-link) Nur Farhana...ahh..you're a Muslim. Asalamualaikum.

ME:(returned his smile) Waalaikumsalam.

MC:So are you here permanently or for a visit?

ME:A visit.

MC:How long?

ME:About 5 days.

MC:Oh. That's a really short trip. So where will you be staying?

ME:Canberra.

MC:Oh, interesting.. Usually tourists who come here would go to Brisbane.

ME:Well, I'm not on a holiday. This is an educational trip with my school. So, is there a lot of halal food that is available here?

MC:Well that depends on where you're going. Canberra...Canberra...I'm not sure but I'm sure you'll find halal food. I actually migrated from Bangladesh. The area I'm currently staying in have a lot of halal food. There's many Muslims living there.

ME:You migrated here? But isn't the standard of living here so much higher?

MC:Well you know Bangladesh. It's a very poor country and it's very hard to earn a living there.

ME:Right. I guess it's better here for you and you also have a job here.

Since Mr Low said that today's reflection theme is on Globalisation, I thought that this personal experience of mine is really relevant.

Mr Rob, our bus driver cum tour guide also mentioned that the three most used language in Australia is English, Chinese and Arabic. I find this piece of information very interesting because I previously thought that English would be the dominant language. From observation, Sydney has quite a strong Chinese influence. The fact that they have their very own Chinatown illustrates just that.

My shopping experience in the Australian Chinatown was in stark contrast to the ones I had at Cambodia and Indonesia. The place that we went to was called Paddy's Market. I thought that I would be able to practice my bargaining skills but I was wrong. The prices are fixed and there was no way to bargain.

We learnt about the history of Australia when Mr Rob drove us to The Rocks. It was amazing that Australia's civilisation actually started with convicts from foreign lands such as Finland, Ireland and mostly from Britain. They were brought there because there was an issue of land constraint. The buildings in that historic area are very beautiful and I salute the government for putting in major efforts to preserve the historical buildings. According to Mr Rob, if the buildings there are to be demolished, it is only if the buildings are structurally unstable and poses a threat to the inhabitants. Even then, if new buildings are to be erected at the same spot, it has to follow a certain style of architecture. There are also buildings that were extended from the old buildings and the result were very unique buildings with a fusion of both new and old.

This made me think about Singapore and honestly, I think Singapore can do much better that what she is doing now.

31052010

a)Science and Technology

Today we got the chance to visit and have a tour around the Australian National University. Professor John gave us an introductory talk on Lasers and Optical Fibres and it was to give us some basic concepts that was relevant during the proceeding laboratory tours. The talk illustrates how optical fibres came about and how they have radically changed our lives. the concept first came about when a scientist discovered that water could guide light. Hence now, with optical fibres that function the same way as water, information can be transmitted much faster and over vast distances. According to Professor John, he used to pay US$ 3 per minute when he made calls to his parents in United Kingdom while he was studying abroad. In contrast to that, international calls can cost as low as 1 cent per minute now.

He also said that students in ANU usually limit the power of the lasers while they are working in the lab to only 50 mili Watt because high laser beams are dangerous. We then proceeded to have a look at the ongoing researches that are being done by students with phD and masters. Although the last time I took Physics was in Secondary 2, I tried my best to understand what was being said.

On of the labs i visited was on lasers. In the lab, they had special equiptments that can point with great accuracy at the bonds between polymers. Since these bonds contain atoms with ions and particles, the laser beam can excite them and make them vibrate hence, causing the bonds to break. Thus with this technology,scientists can break up molecules neatly without destroying them.

We went for many more visits to other labs but unfortunately, I didn't manage to get a clear understanding of what was going on. I"m such a handicap at Physics. After lunch at CSIRO,we proceeded for the science programme 'DNA on The MOVE'. I can really relate to this part of the programme and have a clear understanding because of my strong bio background. We did Electrophoresis which is a procedure regularly done in Forensic Science and also in Research and Development. The activity helped us to determine the culprit of a murder incident by matching the DNA on the crime scene.

After the programme, we headed to the Deep Space Tracking Station where we were able to see many satellites and also learn more about astronauts. So far, throughout the programmes, I find this visit to be the most engaging. I found out that the star isn't the biggest star as I had previously thought since primary school. The biggest star is so huge that the Sun is just a tiny speck in comparison to its size. The biggest also doesn't burn yellow like the Sun. Instead, it burns RED. There is also 2 space shuttles that are roaming the universe in 2 opposite directions at amazing speeds. For example, at that speed, I can reach Singapore from Australia in 8 minutes flat. They have been roaming the universe for 33 years will will continue to do so for many years to come. The universe is infinite.Furthermore, I also thought that an Astronaut can fly back to Earth as soon as their mission has been completed but this proved to be wrong because in Mars, they have to wait for Mars and Earth to be in alignment before they can fly home because then, their journey would be the shortest.

b)Student Interaction

There was two Singaporean students that spent some time to talk and interact with us. They are both on a scholarship and they are in their third semester of their University course. They will be returning to Singapore to do their honours. One is studying Chemistry while the other is studying Physics. From what they shared, they first had to learn the basic and theory of the ongoing research so that they have a better understanding before being involved in the project. Even though they missed home, they said that the experience is worthwhile.

01062010

a)Jenolan Caves

Basically, this trip was really breath-taking and it was really relevant to my H1 geography subject. We were learning about the weathering of limestone and the resulting landforms. Thus this trip helped me to better understand about stalagtites and stalacmites.

At the end of the day, besides relating the breath-taking views to my knowledge of geography, I realised one issue that was prominent during the past eras. In the past, men had more rights and priveleges over women and this posed many obstacles for women to have the opportunity to be explorers.However, a nineteen-year-old girl defied the status quo and went on to discover on of the caves which makes up the Jenolan Caves. The cave was later on named as Katie's Cave and her name was written in pencil on the cave's wall. What made the story significant was that during that era, women wore corsets and dresses with huge bottoms and they looked blown up. Hence Katie most probably wore the same style of dress when she went to search for the cave and this probably made her expedition even mkre challenging. As time progressed, women started to test the lomit further by inventing clothes for women explorers to wear while they go on expeditions.

They also discovered that even though some caves were named after men, innitials of women who had previously discovered the cave is found written on the walls. Tgis illustrates how much prejudice there was in the olden days and I am glad that I am fortunate enough to attend school and get an education without any biasness.

Aussie Trip

2010-06-05T10:17:00.000-07:00

Australia was awesome.

The Kangaroos were cute and friendly.

The Koalas were warm and adorable.

My room mates rocked.

The teachers were approachable.

The bus rides were long and peaceful.

The weather was cooling.

The scenery was breath-taking.

however,

The food sucked balls.

The Hostel was torcherous.

The blistering cold is unbearable.

The prices were ridiculously expensive.

All in all, I'd go through all of it again despite the UPs and DOWNs.

Peace to the Australian with the thick goatee who shown me the peace sign when I flashed him a smile at the 'Hungry Jacks' Diner.

You rock Matey!

2010-05-07T01:41:00.000-07:00

A lot has happened during the long hiatus i had from blogging. It's the usual reason; I've been too busy with school to even have some personal time. I had an AP, GP test this morning and I think I did fairly well. I think the class got a lot of extra time for the test because Mr Toh didn't realise that it was time for assembly.

I'll be going for my conversational chinese in 15 minutes with Sufy and Fana although i really don't feel like it. I'd really rather spend that 2 hours relaxing at home. I feel really tired and I still have to do research for PW and finish doing up the IC prposal and study for chem test and the list goes on...

Honestly, I don't really fancy being the Vice-president of the cca. it's such a chore and it's not even enjoyable. Damn. I should have just joined floorball. All these admin work..it's not my thing. I really miss dancing. actually, anything that involves action and sweat and energy would be better than staring at the laptop doing some proposal. Fuck la..its too late to turn back now.. sianz.

However, let me end this post in a posotive note. I LOVE my PW members. I appreciate that they're actively contributing and we get along really well. It's just great and I guess since we can work well, this PW is not such a chore...yet. haha.

I wish Ma would get back home soon. I can't stand the quietness of the house.

i think i'm fickle in some aspects of life and i don't like that very much.

so yeah. gtg. will blog again in a REALLY long time. cheers c:

Cambodia

2010-02-06T20:57:00.000-08:00

Hi =)

Till next weekend

2010-02-06T20:11:00.000-08:00

I've been on hiatus for the longest time because familiarising myself with the JC system's been taking up most of my energy and time. I mean really, I got a culture shock. Considering that last time I found it such a pain to be studying AMath in a class of 25 people, imagine doing it with 700 people in a lecture hall. Double fuck I tell you. It wasn't so bad the first time cause the topic was real easy and it was sort of a revision. Hopefully the tutorials will be helpful. Looking forward to see my classmates in class 1002. So far You Yi and Yi Lei are my comfirmed classmates and that's a relief.

I attended the school's CCA Bazaar sometime last week and it was horrible for me. I got really confused and then depressed. It's mainly because I realized that I'm not really good at anything. Ofcourse I can dance but it's Malay dance and there's no way in hell I can compete with those girls who can do ballet and all that crap moves which requires flexibility. I can't even bend down and touch my toes for God's sake. I considered sports like Floorball but since I have no sports background, I'm not that confident in being chosen to go for A division competitions. I'm still going for the tryouts next Wednesday but it kinda sucks that the trainings are at Kallang and it usually ends at night.
What I'm really hoping to join is the Students' Council. I think it's about time I stepped up to the plate and give myself a chance to prove that I can be a leader. I know it'll be a challenge since I've never held any serious leadership posts before but hopefully, I'd shape up just nice. Furthurmore, in the Council, the activities are all held in school and hence, no time will be wasted on travelling. Secondly, whatever event that is organized by the council will go on my record and I don't need to be athletic and what not. Hopefully, I'd pass through the nomination and campaigning phase. Please, I don't want to embarrass myself.

During the last Orientation day, they had this event called the disco night and each of the four tribes needs to come up with 2 pairs of dancers for the dance competition. I got picked ._. I know right? I've complaining about how orientation is such a pain in the arse and there I was dancing on stage. Total irony. I got kicked out in the first round. Honestly, I was just dancing for fun and I wasn't taking the whole thing seriously and so, when the song started, I cocked up along with my dance partner. It was a bit embarrasssing when they said I didn't make it to the next round but I was relieved because the next round is 'Free Style' and I was damn sure that I'd look like a bafoon onstage.

tomorrow is Monday.
Sweet, sweet Monday.
It's gonna be sweet cause there'll be no lectures.
Just PE attire, in hall, at 8 am and a whole day of
DISC Profiling

don't ask me what that is
cause I have no idea

2010-01-31T07:20:00.000-08:00

I'm devoted

2010-01-31T07:11:00.000-08:00

...be my Valentine...

...please oh please..

JC Phase 2 + Weekend

2010-01-31T06:32:00.000-08:00

My weekend was filled with activities. Last Friday night, after college, I was at Esplanade with Mum. I pretty much gobbled down the 'Ayam Penyet'. I was damn famished after spending the whole day at Sentosa. Only ate 1 slice of pizza during the break at Sentosa.
Yesterday was spent with Saf and Nizam. We went to Queensway Shopping Centre to buy sport shoes. Well, Saf bought a pair. I was there to window shop.
Today was also spent with Nizam and Saf. We went swimming. My skin's darker despite the sun block I'd applied earlier this morning. It's okay though, Nizam is way, way darker:p Hahahah. Thanks for hanging out with me Saf and Nizam!
Tomorrow is Sufy and Saufy's seventeenth birthday. Fana bought a cake n some present. We will be cutting the cake at school. I asked Matin to join. Will be meeting that dude tomorrow at Marsiling MRT at 6.20. Anybody else wanna join? lol

I'm kinda amused by somebody. Don't you think fighting through blogs is so over-rated? To whom it may concern, I didn't mean for that post to be read by you. In fact, I don't want you reading my blog at all. If you're reading this, please, by all means fuck off. It's amazing when my friends mention to me that you wrote a comment regarding one of my posts on your blog. I was like " OMG she reads my blog?". Obviously, you're unhappy and you're coming up with clever comments to refute what I said. But seriously, what the hell, I don't even know your tumblr's URL and I much prefer it to remain that way. I have no intention to visit your tumblr or read your words or see your pictures. Let's get something straight here; I don't want to see your face or to have anything to do with you. It's just pathetic to know that you're not over the whole thing. Actually I'm not either but I'm not going to your blog and getting myself hot and bothered by what you've said. Come on lah, I'm starting JC and you, Poly. Nobody is forcing you to read my blog and I'm not trying to get you to do so either. You getting mad means nothing to me. You writing stuff on your tumblr means nothing to me. Your tumblr mean nothing to me. Your words mean nothing to me. Don't you get it? YOU mean nothing to me. So why don't you run along and bother someone else ey? Seriously, GO!

There. From now on, no more of my blog space shall be wasted on this person.

I hope tomorrow will be fun.

Yaye Hamza, Iris and Sijun!

Orientation Phase One

2010-01-28T06:09:00.000-08:00

Today didn't suck that bad because I was in the same group as Sufy. I mean, what are the odds right? So little malays and we were even from the same secondary school. lol

turns out, Hamza is one of my group leaders.
He seems friendly enough and funny. He also has a habit of calling out to random JC2 people and telling us who is single. Well, I'd like to talk to him casually but the new-ness of everything makes me feel more at ease to remain unnoticed and in the background.

As much as I detest it, I cheered. I'm one of the louder ones actually. The councillors look so pitiful trying to get us to be enthusiastic. Somehow I got tired and I decided that being unresponsive is so over-rated. Still, cheering with others who wouldn't isn't much fun either.

Tomorrow, I'll be going to Sentosa.
Hopefully it'd be fun.
My orientation t-shirt is way too big. It's an S but well, I think it's a guys cutting.
I'll try to make it look good. Somehow...

JC life Begins

2010-01-27T05:25:00.000-08:00

So this morning, around 7+, Yee Khang sms-ed me. He woke me up from my slumber and interrupted my wonderful dreaming. I was dreaming that it was snowing in Singapore and I was scooping up the snow from the ground. The snow was weird though. It was white but it has this silicon, jelly-like feel to it. Super wobly but cold nonetheless. People are screaming all aroud me because they're chasing each other to rub the ball of snow in someone else's faces. I was tempted to do the same and was just about to when my phone rang. Dang it, Yee Khang! Oops, I went off track there.

So Yee Khang got into Saint Andrews. I then went back to sleep in hope of resuming from where my dream was interrupted but to no avail. I continued to sleep dreamlessly when another text woke me up. This time, I got my posting results.

"MOE: NUR FARHANA BTE AHMAD HUSNAN,

you are posted to NANYANG JC, SCIENCE (26S) under 2010 JAE.

Pls report to JC/MI on 28 Jan 10 at 7.30 am."

I proceeded to check the date of today and my phone said it was 27-01-2010.

Hmmm, 27th. I then immediately went like "Fuck! That's like tomorrow? WTH. I'm schooling tomorrow? Nope, that's not real."

I lay in bed, wide awake, letting the reality sink in.

Following that, I sms-ed Saf, Haziq and Rynn.

I feel like fuck when I think about how Rynn and Haziq will be starting school in April. I really felt miserable. Honestly. I was going through mild depression as I continued to lay in bed, sms-ing people.

Mum then entered my room.

I peeked out from under the cover, " Ma, I got into Nanyang. Have to report tomorrow. Bleagh."

I continued to groan and groaned lauder when she told me to get up and shower.

I felt better when I found out that Umairah, Fana, Sufy, Saufy, Matin and Diyanah are all posted to Nanyang. Hence, I cheered up and hit the showers.

Met up with Saf and we went to the Esplanade. Not many people. Breezy and peaceful.

She's moving tonight, to Far-Far-Away Land called Bedok.

A guy named Hamzah from Nanyang Jc just called.

I'll need to bring

1. $29

2. Thermometer

3. Unwanted Cds( I asked him and he said it's for decorations later. Nvm, I dont wanna know.)

4. PE t-shirt

and I have to report in BP uniform.

My personal hell will begin tomorrow.

Fuck Orientation crap to the core.

Goodnight humans.

Glee- Bust Your Windows

2010-01-26T08:23:00.000-08:00

Formspring Me

2010-01-26T07:40:00.000-08:00

What would your perfect day look like?

A perfect day would also be a forgettable day and there's no fun in that. So, doing something outrageous with my friends would be just perfect.

7 hours ago
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Would you rather get up early or sleep late?

Sleep late. Most of the time, I'm nocturnal. Actually, I love mornings lah. It's just that I don't have the will power to make myself wake up in time to enjoy it. Mornings are great. It's like you have the full day ahead of you. Unlike waking up at noon and you'd rather just stay at home since half the day is gone.

Am i rambling? heh

1 hour ago
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Mraz

2010-01-26T07:35:00.000-08:00

My Screen Saver. Oh, yes.

Sexyback

2010-01-26T07:23:00.000-08:00

omg

Legion Movie

2010-01-26T06:38:00.000-08:00

Okay some parts are a bit scary. Let me repeat this 'a bit'.

Even though I wanna grow taller, I'd never want to be like the ice-cream man.

And the Grandma scene is like wtf.

I really wished I had watched The Law Abiding Citizen.

It's about this guy who's in prison but he's like super intelligent. He's the head of this spy team or was he a mafia? Okay nevermind. Thing is, he's in prison but he can still kill people. The officer that is handling the prisoner is pressed to find out how he's doing it and stop it before the prisoner kills more lives. It seems really action-packed. I like!

Movie watching

2010-01-26T06:17:00.000-08:00

Today was fun. Treat Haziq to a movie. Well, actually he paid half of the $19.80 bill. haha.
Why am I treating him you may ask? It's because I lost a bet. We played this stupid game which innitially seems so staight-forward that I thought there was no way in hell I could lose.
This is how it works.
I ask you 5 simple questions and you have to lie to each of them. Simply put, if you answer truthfully, you lose.
I know. It's so simple.
Asked Nabil to play but he was hesitant. Obviously, he's aware that there'll be a catch. Heh, clever dude.

Rynn didn't come. But it's okay. The movie sucked balls anyway. I mean seriously, the story line was so disorganized and the ending was a bit "Huh?". Really, don't go and waste your money to watch Legion. While waiting for the movie to start, we were watching the trailers of other movies and we were like "Dude, we should have went for the Law Abiding Citizen!".

Hafidz stood me up today. I give up on that dude. He can go and get Mr Shah anything himself and without me. How rude can he get. He knew he'll be meeting me today but he went and made plans with his friends. And he was the one who said that we should meet up today, mind you. Mann, some people can be really rude.

Thanks for today Mizi and Rynn, I really wished you could've joined us. The more the merrier.
Thanks also for the bubble tea.

Can't wait to meet Saf. It's been too long.

See ya tomorrow Saf!

Tell Me I'm Dreaming

2010-01-26T00:12:00.000-08:00

I AM MORTIFIED!

The Greatness of Boredom

2010-01-24T22:37:00.000-08:00

"Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin and they end...with no lasting memories made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life."

Today is one of those days.

I was supposed to go to town and get some errands done for Ma but she cancelled it. How great.

Although I should prolly go out with my friends since it might be the last time I'll be free before College starts, I don't feel up for socializing. Blarrgh to small talk and empty conversations.

Cheers to coach potato-ing!

Formspring Me

2010-01-24T22:31:00.000-08:00

Anyways if you don't mind me asking, how long have you had this blog, farhana? -zauwin-

I think you are probably of this fact but for all intents and purposes, the date's written on every post.

1 minute Ago
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twas a blue-black one. still have it. too tired to give you the other day. sorry.

it's okay. I don't need it anymore anyway. c:

1 days ago
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Hey!It's me Nik.Visit my blog, http://greycloudsandsilverlinings.blogspot.com

Hey Nik. Yeah, visited. =)

1 days ago

BIRD MEN

2010-01-24T22:15:00.000-08:00

By Akasha

Anybody want to try this with me? It looks like a load of fun C:

What I Did Yesterday

2010-01-24T22:00:00.000-08:00

That's right. I flew a kite.

And it was AWESOME!

Watch Your Back

2010-01-23T10:35:00.000-08:00

" Hate is a strong word, but I really, really, really don't like you. "

I'll be watching you Shahrin, you jackass.

I Love

2010-01-23T09:38:00.000-08:00

Dhirah, I'm sorry for not being around when he gives you hell. I'm sorry I wasn't able to hold your hand and tell you it's going to be okay. I'm sorry I've never taken you as seriously as needed. I'm sorry I've never hugged you tightly when you're sobbing your heart out. I'm sorry I was never around enough to speak up for you when he mocks you. I'm sorry I haven't been sticking around to tutor you. I'm so terribly and miserably sorry. I'll give him a kick in the balls the next time I see him kay? And you can punch him in the guts when he's grovelling on the ground in agony. Don't cry anymore. Who's afraid of the Big Bad Wolf eh?

You saying that being with us today made you forget what happened just means the world to me. I can't make a divorce happen but I hope you'll let me share your burden. Your being happy is the most important thing right now. Tomorrow, when you wake up, we'll go out and play and have fun. I love you and I want you to just be a care-free kid, just like how every kid should be. When I was your age, my world revolves around new best friends, boys and mean teachers. I feel sad that yours have to be burdened by a step father, step siblings, a half-brother and a father that's missing in action. It's hardly fair.

I'll shelter you as muh as I can cuzzie. I love you ;and
I'll be by your side when you wake up tomorrow.

2010-01-23T08:54:00.000-08:00

I feel like fuck. I can't sleep. I pretended to sleep though, so my cousins will. They've fallen asleep and I sneaked out quietly to the living room to blog. I have to write what's in my heart or I don't think I can bear it. Today was such a roller coaster ride of emotions. I feel so much in me I think I'll explode.

When I think they've fallen asleep, I rolled over on my stomach and lifted my head with my palms supporting my chin. With the night lamp on, I can clearly make out her features. As I watched my 11-year-old cousin sleep, I was overwhelmed with such strong emotions. What have they done to deserve this? I mean really. So their parents got a divorce and their mother remarried. So what? Is that their fault? Is it their fault their replacement Dad is a bastard? Is it their fault that their biological father isn't around to protect them from the constant verbal abuse? Is it really their fault that their academics are suffering?

How in fuck's sake can they get clever when they have to do housework after school? How are they suppose to improve when they don't even get a chance to study? Instead, they have to lull their 2 month old brother to sleep when other kids are studying and going for tuition. You tell me. You tell me how it is fair for you to mock and yell at them when you've never even given them your full undivided attention before. HOW! Shit! I really want to hit something right now! I really really do.

It just feels horrible to hear that bastard mock her like that. In front of me. Who the fuck are you? You're not her father. You think just because you're her step father you can say whatever you want? Just because their real father isn't around, you think you can get away with mistreating them? Dude, I've never liked you. I never liked the idea of my aunt marrying you. You might ask me why the hell I call you 'Uncle' Shahrin. Well fucktard, that's definitely not because I respect you or any of that kind of bullshit. It's cause I know my aunt's gonna freak if I call you Shahrin. What difference does it make? I always refer to you as Shahrin anyway when Aunt and you're not around. Fuck you mann. How can you treat them like that? They're only kids... Do you feel satisfied threatening them? You feel some sort of fulfillment is it, fucker? You're just pathetic. You're like what? Middle-aged and you still pick on kids? That's just sad.

What scares me the most is how long my cousins can take this crap.
Dhirah, just hang on and you and your sis need to stick together no matter what.