I'm not here to impress. I write to clear my mind and as such, my train of thoughts might be either brilliant or junk.
Really Stupid @ 18.1.10
I did something really stupid the other day. Something, on any other normal day, I wouldn't do. I went to meet a guy whom I know absolutely nothing of. I don't know how he looks like and I don't know his full name. Sounds stupid and reckless? I would pretty much say the same myself. But anyho, I went to wait for him at an Mrt station and he said he'd be in red. I started to panic once I arrived. I mean, obviously, I didn't think this through. What the hell was I thinking? What, am I crazy? But it was too late to turn back then because he showed up. I couldn't explain how dissappointed i was when i saw him. I mean, obviously he didn't lie about his age. He definitely looks 19 but he's so not my type. The moment I set eyes on him, I can pick out 10 things I didn't like. He's a bit short. He's hair is dyed in a colour I absolutely didn't like but the most important thing that disturbs me is how he looks way too old for me. I mean, i expected him to look younger and maybe not so much like an "Abang Abang". The Chinese readers probably won't understand this term. Sorry but I don't how to explain otherwise. As we walked, I kept plancing to look at him. I can't believe I'm here. I'm walking with this dude. All that was going through my mind was, " Crap. I shouldn't be here. " And that was when I noticed his goatee. Its not really a goatee per se but it looks like a few strands of hair growing at his chin. I saw that and I thought " Hell no. God, i hate guys with those." Hence, I blurted out, " Ey, go shave your janggot lah" He stared at me and asked why. I just shrugged and he kept pestering while stroking his goatee. Fuck mann, can he stop doing that? At last I gave up and said," It's just a preference". Weirdly, he laughed. Okay, soon after that, we were sitting at the void deck and fortunately, i brought along my guitar. It was a life saver because we didn't have to talk as much. He taught me some chords and that part was quite nice. I didn't like sitting near him. He smells strongly of cigerettes. I guess he's a heavy smoker and his lips are dark. I started some conversation. I wanted to know what kind of guy he is and so I asked casually," Ever drank Vodka before?" Unsurprisingly he answered "Yes" He proceeded to describe the colour of the bottle. Apparently, there are 2 types; a red and a green bottle. I'm sure the confused look was evident on my face because he asked me if I've tried them. When I said no, he seemed surprised," Kalau belum try asal tanyer?" Gawd, do I look like the type that would go around drinking to him? I mean, honestly I think I look very decent. To make matters worse, he added," Kau gy uh 7-eleven. Gy tengok, ade green and red". I said, sarcastically "Thanks uh!" I didn't think he noticed my sarcasm however._. Other conversations followed like how he never go for friday prayers cause he thinks it's leceh. I also subtly insulted him. You know all those mats who wear caps but it's those type that they don't wear properly, leaving an air space. Well, I pretty much said that it was stupid. I said I could ask him to hold my phone and he can like place it in the space in his cap. I noticed that he was getting a bit irritated with me. After 35 minutes, i told him that i needed to go off. Surprisingly, he complied. Maybe he didn't like me as much as I didn't like him. LOL It's good then that's the feeling is mutual.