this is an old piece of writing dated in early-2009;
it will soon turn to be a year since we last shared a genuine smile.
sitting here right now, under the shower head, my thoughts are a little louder,
they seem to become alive .
i realised that i had truly loved you.
maybe we could have lasted
and perhaps, the lack of patience and reasoning had been the cause of it.
maybe i love you less now than i had loved you then
Maybe i don't even love you anymore
but i can't deny that i miss the thought of us
i miss the nights we walked in silence
the times you held my hand
maybe it's because you are my first
or perhaps i'm just weak in my pursuit to forget you
maybe i don't want to forget something that to me, was wonderful
people may come and go but the memories are what's left behind
i realised that i had truly loved you back then.
this realisation echo off the droplets, eventually seep into my skin
and then down the drain.